Ocotillo. Terlingua, Texas. 2020.

Goals

I’m working on two fitness goals:

1. Run a sub-20 minute 5k.
2. Achieve the initial goal of the Kettlebell Simple & Sinister program: 10 x 10 one-handed swings in 5 minutes, followed by 10 x Turkish get-ups in 10 minutes, both with a 32kg kettlebell.

Plan

Achieving these will be (hopefully) accomplished with simple weekly programming:

• 1 x 45min easy run
• 1 x 45min hill run
• 1 x 45min fartlek run
• 1 x 90min trail run, intensity depends on the day
• 4 x KB simple practice, increasing weight when ready

Why?

Because running fast is fun! And having a solid body with tons of energy that is ready for anything physical and fun is wonderful too!

I love to go play outside, especially with others. Run. Hike. Ride bikes. Paddleboard. Kayak. Whatever. This minimal program makes all of this possible. A trip to the mountains to run up and down them a few times? Yes please! I’m ready.

This is one of my favorites of all time. Prom / King on the Care For Me album just had me crying once again. Damn. I love this dude.

Working in a park in Farmers Branch, Texas, around 5:30pm. And deciding on mala beads to enhance my meditation practice. My first set. I chose a seven chakra rainbow design … and for whatever reason I’m super excited about this, so it must be more important than I originally thought. Anyway … here’s a flower that is just a few feet away from where I’m now sitting. #adayinthelife

One of my favorite animations …

Don’t think about why you question, simply don’t stop questioning. Don’t worry about what you can’t answer, and don’t try to explain what you can’t know. Curiosity is its own reason. Aren’t you in awe when you contemplate the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure behind reality? And this is the miracle of the human mind — to use its constructions, concepts, and formulas as tools to explain what man sees, feels and touches. Try to comprehend a little more each day. Have holy curiosity.

– Albert Einstein

Our relationships with other people are reflected in our relationships with our things, and likewise our relationships with things show up in our relationships with people.

– Marie Kondo, Spark Joy

I am currently on a journey of finding new homes for the things that no longer “spark joy" for me, discarding the rest. While I’m excited to finally realize “the life-changing magic of tidying up," for now I’m enjoying the life-changing magic of letting go of all the shit that isn’t serving me.

When you lie to yourself or misrepresent the truth in any way, you increase the stress on your body. After years of misrepresenting your true wants, the increasing stress can lead to health problems. Lying to yourself always breaks down the relationship with yourself, creates stress, and represents the truth as potentially dangerous and threatening.

— Robert Fritz, The Path of Least Resistance

The observation deck at the torch of the Statue of Liberty (that I didn’t know existed until today) was closed in 1916 after German spies blew up a nearby island. A video that explains the Black Tom explosion:

Death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive — the risk to be alive and express what we really are. Just being ourselves is the biggest fear of humans. We have learned to live our lives trying to satisfy other people’s demands. We have learned to live other people’s points of view because the fear of not being accepted and of not being good enough for someone else.

— Don Miguel Ruiz, The Four Agreements

The topic of narcissism has penetrated the social consciousness enough that most people correctly associate it with a pattern of behaviors that include grandiosity, a pervasive need for admiration, and a lack of empathy. What almost no one understands is how every level of severity in this diagnosis is underpinned by shame. Which means we don’t “fix it" by cutting people down to size and reminding folks of their inadequacies and smallness. Shame is more likely to be the cause of these behaviors, not the cure.

– Brené Brown, Daring Greatly

I miss hopping on an airplane towards adventure in an unexplored (to me) natural place.

There was an indescribably powerful notion that this dimension in which the entity and I convened was infinitely more “real” than the consensus reality I usually inhabit. It felt truer than anything else I’d ever experienced. – DMT drug study respondent

DMT drug study investigates the ‘entities’ people meet while tripping

We don’t change, we don’t grow, and we don’t move forward without the work. If we really want to live a joyful, connected, and meaningful life, we must talk about things that get in the way.

— Brené Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection

It’s all too easy to ignore the difficult aspects of life. But what may not be apparent at first, is that if we don’t deal with the difficult aspects head-on, they will deal with us later. Dive the fuck into the water.

People may call what happens at midlife “a crisis,” but it’s not. It’s an unraveling—a time when you feel a desperate pull to live the life you want to live, not the one you’re “supposed” to live.

— Brené Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection

I like this. “Crisis” never felt right. “Unraveling" does.

My own awakening has been a lot. I feel compelled to process everything that has happened in the past using all of the tools I’ve learned along the way. And from this knowledge I’m able to begin creating the life I really want to live, shedding everything else that no longer serves me along the way.

Do you know the one sign that you’ve woken up? It’s when you are asking yourself, “Am I crazy, or are all of them crazy?”

— Anthony de Mello, Awareness

The action of the child inventing a new game with his playmates; Einstein formulating a theory of relativity; the housewife devising a new sauce for the meat; a young author writing his first novel; all of these are, in terms of our definition, creative, and there is no attempt to set them in some order of more or less creative.

Carl Rogers

Life is not a competition. There is no need to compare oneself to others, nor is there much good to come from it. Let go and create something!

It’s 1:38am. I’m curled up on the sofa under a blanket with a book, music and freshly brewed white tea. Eat, Pray, Love. Old-school Roots (R.I.P. Malik B). White Riesling. What has my life become!?? 😆 And just a few hours ago I was running and dancing along the beach in the moonlight, contemplating a project I’m extremely excited about. So maybe it’s really just more of the same? 🏃🕺😘

After 5 miles of running to loosen up my body, I had SUCH a good time playing around on the beach tonight!! I would have loved to sit and meditate for an hour. It would have been perfect if it weren’t for the crazy crazy mosquitoes who don’t give two shits about anything other than viciously biting and extracting as much blood as they can stomach. It was super windy and they still found a way. Like, how? Blood is worth it I guess. 🤷🏻‍♂️

Anyway. After a mile of meditating to Alpha waves I threw on King Harvest’s Dancing in the Moonlight on repeat and did just that. Sooooooo free. So beautiful.

#mbaug Day 2: Floating.

#mbaug Day 1: Up!

Creating, I have concluded, is the best window to the universe I know.

The creative force, through the vehicle of consciousness, brings forth the life force … creating expresses the height of human spirit.

— Robert Fritz, The Path of Least Resistance

We should stay right here a little longer …

This has been one of my favorite Tiny Desk concerts for some time. The music is beautiful, erotically charged, and I love it.